In the Waiting

What has been a long waiting period for you that ended up in a fulfillment?

Can you see which parts of your identity and personality matured?

I stumbled on these five AM mornings by an accident, I could say, but that wouldn’t be true. So I choose to look at it this way, although seeing myself having my own back is as surprising as the fact that I as a Finn am living in Uruguay. I was being prepared for this by the long maturing process of waiting.

When was the first time I dreamed of having my own company? It’s hard to remember this morning, but I did start my first official company when I was just about to graduate from my bachelor’s. It was an experience that taught me a lot, what not to do and was short lived. But I am deeply thankful for that experience as it matured me in so many ways, among other good things that came out of it.

After my babies were born, I was trying out creating different products for my future business. And what I learned from that waiting season was that I loved producing more in the form of coming up with new ideas than with making the same products over and over again.

Now that I was one month ago about to take the leap of changing my sleeping routines one hour earlier, I could see how I had matured in the area of taking myself seriously. Before, I would go around and seek validation from others, but would keep my own validation out of reach for myself.

After starting to change that and showing my own support to myself, everything pretty much changed. Visibly it was the beginning of that five AM business hour for me. So it might not look like a lot, on the outside. Yet in my inner world, I could see that thorough change, like all that waiting and maturing and learning was compounding in that moment. In the form of me finally having my own back.

When you think of your life, and in the light of your deep desire to serve in the specific arena, what have you already learned that can benefit you tremendously? How much space do you create for yourself to notice all that?