Wonder leading to connection

 

There's that story of your life that goes unseen sometimes.

Bits and pieces of you that are as important part of who you really are, yet still invisible, mostly.

When you start searching for the patterns your life has followed over and over, it is trying to tell you something important.

Yet the things you believe to be true about yourself may push that evidence into invisibility.

The strength you're showing when someone needs your help, what is it called?

How many times have you find yourself helping someone in that same way?

And at the same time, what have you been telling yourself about it.

"I'm just doing this, because they need me!"

"This is not really me, but I can help if I am being needed."

I started realizing this very pattern in my own life.

Yet my narrative was that I coincidentally always ended up helping others in the same area, because someone else needed me to.

And that I didn't choose it or I didn't want to do it in the first place.

But it was a place of service for me.

And yet it occured time after time, in all different setups imaginable.

In different social settings.

The history repeated itself: things changed, someone needed help in this very area, they asked me, I decided to help.

That one random night, when the lights turned on for me, was deeply emotional.

I saw a glimpse of myself as the person with no broken layers, no hiding, just mere courage of existing as I am and the joy of being me.

And there it was again, that same theme, that had followed me over and over again.

Yet now I saw it as part of who I actually am.

And it didn't matter how it happened, what were the things that changed and I was being asked help in that very area.

I always said yes.

Even though my story was "I don't really want this."

So why did I say yes?

Was it me being curious to see if this was actually part of who I am?

Or was it just pure willingness to lend a hand when it was needed?

This whole process is so meaningful to me now, as I am getting to know myself more.

And that's also why I wanted to share these thoughts with you.

Is there that red line in your life ongoing, that the very same thing is being handed at you over and over again?

Do you find yourself serving in some way, time after time?

While you're also telling yourself a story "this is actually not really me, I'm just here to help."

I encourage you to take a closer look at those pattern like turns taking place in your journey.

Is there something they are trying to tell you about yourself?

Is there a hidden strength in you that you won't acknowledge out loud?

What if you don't know yet the full scale of your strengths, gifts and abilities, until you embrace the unknown.

Your own stories about yourself might not be the whole picture of you. 

You tapping into a hidden strength can start as a pattern that is there to reveal all that you have to give.

There's more in you, than you even know yourself.

And it's worth searching to connect with all of those layers of you.

Someone will have a life altering impact in their life, because you said yes to you exploring you.

And it led you to serve them from that place of getting to know each part of you.

Being okay with not knowing all the layers yet.

And showing up as the one who seeks deep connection with themselves.

Even when it feels scary.

When it takes you to do the things you always thought were the scariest in life.

Hugs,

Pia