Girl, you lead

After that question, I could never go back to my old ways.

It stirred something in me, that had it"s own way working in my heart.

Something just clicked.

And I stepped out in the open, like there was no going back.

Are you hiding behind others expectations or leading your own way?

Boom!

There it was.

I'm still taking my steps with shaky legs and heavy head, breathing deeply.

Fighting those clouds full of echoes of distant "don't":s as I go.

But I can tell you this.

Think of it this way, that you are being handed a beautiful, spotless white linen where you can paint your colors in it.

And it's your life's work.

Do you then go around asking permitions from others?

It is yours.

So, no.

You just kindly pick your colors and enjoy the "Splash!"

As a good girl, I get it how it feels.

Arrogant, cold, selfish and the list has no end.

But why though.

Why live your own life like that, like hiding.

And thinking that stepping out as you, would be arrogant.

That it would be too much.

There is a difference of you serving through the deep, compassionate desires of your own heart.

And the cold hearted shutting beloved people out of your live, by you only choosing you.

These things don't need to be inclusive with each other.

As they are not equal scenarios.

You can serve through leading your own life and take people with you.

But not like, "I do what ever you tell me to do, 'cause you're the boss of me".

No, dear.

You are the boss of you.

You can be gentle but firm, while finding your way.

And you still have that priviledge of listening to your own heart, what does it tell you.

What is it that you love, dear?

What makes you feel alive, darling?

What brings  y o u  deep joy.

Take people with you as you follow these echoes.

Yes, do take them.

But you lead you.

Dear.

You lead.

I know it is beautiful, when you do.

And you can learn along the way.

What is the gentle and firm first step today, you might ask.

Ask yourself this.

Am I hiding?

You're beautiful dear, no matter what your answer is.

Just ask, will you?