How am I a ___? *fill in your secret dream identity*

What is the identity you secretly dream about?

For me it was for a long time dressed up in this question.

How am I a runner?

And here's a little backstory how I experienced myself deeply as a non athletic girl.

Growing up as one of the shortest girls in my class.

Having barely any sports hobbies, if biking to school and swimming once a week is not counted. 

Lacking all the decent sports equipment for school physical education classes.

I deeply viewed my identity through the non athletic girl framework.

I was no runner, I thought, while I still enjoyed long track runs and occasional orienteering at school. 

Have you ever thought how much the way you view yourself directs your daily choices?

When a few years back I started putting running shoes on, just to form a habit, my view of myself started slowly shifting more and more.

Making running safe began with my process of being okay with very little progress and enjoying the small repetitions.

If I felt really bad while running in the rain, I had made it okay for myself to stop and go back home with a smile.

I had over exceeded myself as my goal was to put on the sneakers for 21 times.

After the fourteenth time it suddenly changed.

I started longing for the feeling that I felt while running.

Like I longed for the ice cream on Summer holidays.

I am sharing my story because of one thing.

I am convinced that there is more available for you.

So, what is that identity you secretly dream about?

What is something simple you can choose to make a habit for yourself, that takes you one tiny step closer to that identity?

How powerful it truly is for you to realize what's out there for you.

And with the "out there" I mean in your empowered landscape.

In your ability to dream something good for yourself and then go take the tiny steps over and over.

And enjoying the process, seeing your identity slowly shift for you.

You have an enormous creativity hidden inside of yourself and yet there is this one thing, a beast I could say, guarding you so that you wouldn't tap into it.

A fear of failure.

And I know how that feels.

For several decades I was tied with it and still rewrite my story today in the area of exercise and my active identity.

Your fear of failure can be disguised in many different forms.

It can feel like a safety that your mind offers you in the old way of doing things in your daily life.

It can be seen in the disturbing thoughts that flood into your mind when you even consider changing your habits by adding a tiny new one.

Like the fear of life becoming so disciplined that all the fun is sucked out of it and the sun never shines again.

You know how our mind can be such a drama queen.

But you, my friend, can train your brain.

You can choose to make that one tiny habit safe for you to build.

Tell yourself what it is and treat yourself kindly when you do it today for the first time.

This is the day you will look back into.

This is that day when you can make a deep effect to your future everyday life.

Because you choose to be powerful in your own life.

Now.

Not tomorrow, not next year, but  t o d a y.

With a way that is sustainable enough for you to keep on practicing, even on your very worst day.

You choose and you can make that difference.

So now, name that dream and your tiny step, dear.

You can fill in the blank, simple as that.

How am I a ___?