Fill your cup

I walked the path of inner healing and still do.

Something I've learned through that path that changed a lot in my life is this.

If I never pour into my own cup I will go around looking like from the outside like I serve others but I actually do it out of my own neediness.

And it ends up being all self focused and self serving.

This was painful to realize.

Especially as a person who loves to serve others needs.

I started to slowly learn what it looks like to fill my cup first.

But many times it felt selfish.

It felt so wrong.

But when I learned little by little to do it, it was so powerful.

I would start my day, pouring into my cup.

And I would then go out to my day pouring into others.

I would end my day pouring into me again.

Pushing through the thoughts of "what a selfish lifestyle I am living" and replacing them with a thought of "this is what healthy and whole looks like".

It's still a daily choice that I face every day and I do have days and seasons when I'm very drawn to my old ways.

But I've learned to experience the filled cup moments as part of the good and healthy lifestyle that I want to practise and learn. 

And each time when I successfully choose to fill my cup I'm forming a habbit that can radically shift the way I show up.

I read to fill my soul with good thoughts.

I walk to let my radically peace filled thoughts find their way deep down, where I embrace them as the hope that walks with me, even through the storm.

I wash my face, while the thought of being so fully loved and held washes my soul.

Filling your own cup is simple.

Although it comes through a struggle of understanding your worth and being okay with you also having needs.

And you being the gatekeeper of those needs being met.

This is the path of loving others well, when you start with yourself.

Besides, you filling your cup just for the sake of it, is also a beautiful thing.