9/27/22

Five keys for protect your peace


Here are five key thoughts that I've found helpful for me to protect my peace.


These have been tested during crazy times, while me and hubby have been saying yes to some of the most unlikely things.


Because we knew in our gut that our path aligned with those crazy jumps.


Somehow we've over and over again found ourselves from setups that were not specifically created for a family.


And those seasons have put our peace to test.


While they've also been such unforgetful beautiful adventures.


Through the most turbulent phases, these five thoughts have proved themselves true to me helping us to navigate those seasons.


And they've carried the fruits of gratitude and peace as the after taste when coming out of the fields of pressure.


As you read through, focus on listening with your heart, not your head.


This is not regular knowledge that you can wrap your head around just like that.


This is you studying a living substance that leaves you clues.


It's you connecting with your soul to let wisdom you're seeking flow through you.


It's about the search, not the end result.


A journey, not a destination.


A who and a how, not why.


I would be so glad to hear your thoughts about this, what stirs up for you as you dive into these thoughts.



>> Peace is about being, not doing <<


Who we are is the home nest for our peace.


If our peace was a dove, it would rest in that specific place.


Our identity.


As identity is such an abstract substance, this is how I've seen it in practice in partnership with peace.


Let's imagine people saying things about you and I that are very hurtful.


What I've learned is that oftentimes those kinds of words touch an area in our identity that holds some pain.


What we might end up doing then is that we go into bitter tasting action trying to prove those words wrong.


And while the action begins from painful thoughts the outcome is never anything to celebrate.


The bitter taste never fades away from the results.


The underlying source of peace is going back to our identity.


No matter what stage we are in with building our identity into healthy stage, in there we can find our peace.


Reminding ourselves who we are is a strong fortress.


Yet the secret is that you detach yourself from any action, accomplishment or result you've made.


And focus on just your worth in itself.


Who are you and how are you loved and held in just that stage?


With nothing to offer.


Just being.


From that place you protect your peace like you were standing on a fortress.


>> Peace as presence <<


When you understand that peace is not something to achieve you come to the essence of peace.


Peace is like presence.


Imagine you being in a quiet room alone with your eyes closed.


When someone enters that room, even if they came really quietly, you can still most likely sense them.


Peace is the same way.


It hovers over you and abides within you and you just sense it.


As much as you sense when it's not there anymore.


When you operate out of realizing the presence of peace, it helps you to find out what drives it away.


When we're busy in life it's so easy to just go with such a rush that we forget about acknowledging out of which stage we operate from.


It gets easily crowded in our head, the thoughts that don't feed our peace come and offer themselves constantly to us.


And when we walk with those thoughts our peace has no space there.


The beautiful thing is that we don't need to chase peace. 


When we feed our mind choosing powerful life filled thoughts we naturally host the presence of peace.


>> Training your peace like a puppy <<


This thought has come very handy for me in various setups.


As a highly sensitive person and an introvert the stuff gets pretty intense in my emotions and mind if I let it.


The understanding of how I can train my peace has been life changing.


The key to this is that peace is trained when the tumult rises.


Yet the secret training tool is to always go back to your identity.


What comes to steal your peace looks like this.


Self doubt.


Second guessing yourself.


Forgetting who you are.


Focusing on the lack.


The ugly comparison.


I get that last mentioned training ground, comparison, a lot when doing new things.


How you train your peace in these moments is simple.


First recognize the source of the shooting arrows.


Then remind yourself what is the opposite force for that.


For comparison it's going back to my own unique value as well as appreciating what others bring to this world as well.


Seeing the richness of all of us bringing something valuable to the table.


When you know these two, the source stealing your peace and the antidote, you start the training.


By acknowledging how ugly feelings you're experiencing you're not getting stuck to that phase.


You speak the reality over you.


Why this helps?


Sometimes when the feelings take such tumultuous role you just thinking what you know to be true in the contrary isn't enough.


You hearing yourself saying it out loud can speak a lot louder.


Maybe even dance a little, haha.


Moving your body the way you feel most authentic to what you speak is a powerful reminder to your whole being.


The joyful dance where you shake things off from your shoulders and lift your hands up like celebrating being alive today, right now, in this place.


Like training a puppy takes constant repeat, training your peace takes too.


These three phases for training my peace are constantly in use for me, the last time yesterday.


When I do new scary things and embrace growth there's nothing better than having working tools to combat what before got me off the track.


I don't have to go back to my toxic traits to hide.


I can take a stand for my peace.


And it's a beautiful reminder of how powerful we are in every situation.


No matter what ever it is that comes to try to steal our peace.


>> Intuition abides with peace <<


When I'm operating out of peace this one thing happens. 


My intuition flows more freely. 


My body is not in a stage of agony.


I can recognize small details and bigger themes in the season like indicators more easily.


It's like my peace spreads itself as a map as I go.


And my intuition points out where to take the turn and when to slow down or run up the hill.


The way these two align compliments each other's strengths.


Peace protects your mind and body in a state of safety.


While intuition pokes you gently to the directions and actions you feel aligning with your path.


The serenity of your mind and posture helps you to go through the turbulence that always comes when you follow your intuition.


You enter into a new territory that challenges you, what you've learned and who you think you are or can become.


When you let your intuition lead your steps you need peace.


It's your helmet when the accusing, alarming lizard brain thoughts start shooting into your brain.


"What am I doing here? I'm the underdog with no proof of getting through this!!"


"Why does this feel so hard, I must have made a mistake!?"


"Why on earth did I ruin my life with such a stupid decision? No one in their healthy state of mind does this!"


There's where walking with peace in your intuition comes up handy.


That's when you go back to knowing who you are.


You're so loved and held.


It's all going to be okay.


>> Peace as a posture <<


You know that feeling when you're trying to make something happen and it all comes for nothing.


And yet in another instance your life aligns in an unexpected way and there's your chance.


I've often made big decisions with shaking hands on times like that.


Not everything has been perfectly aligned, but there's been that sense of something just being right.


You know how intuition is hard to explain with words.


I like the word vibrancy, it speaks so well about how intuition feels like.


It's that posture of you letting something flow through you, naturally like a river flows through the wilderness.


When you're forcing it, it just feels different.


How do you recognize the ways of vibrancy and the forced willpower from each other, you might ask.


It's not so easy when your peace is shaken and your mind is racing "is this for me or not!?!?"


But it's simple.


This is how I recognize it.


Your posture is receiving, not demanding.


It's relaxed in a way how misty morning feels like in nature, things happen at their own pace.


With vibrancy your breath flows deep, while the grasping energy takes you to shallow breathing and bodily tension.


Your head is not leading but your gut, your soul.


When you can mentally or physically let go of something you've been forcing and grasping, that takes you to this posture.


The beauty of open hands to receive and space for letting go.



Did you recognize anything familiar to you from these five thoughts?


Post your comments in the comment box, I would love to hear.



9/20/22

Self-image

 

Twelve years ago I was crying for deep fear. It was the night before the New York Fashion Week. I had volunteered to help to dress the models with a team of women.


Why was I crying, you might ask? I was terrified because of the self-image that I carried deep down in my heart. Growing up poor had left a stigma in my heart, of not being worthy. And going to that fashion world frightened me for that very reason.


I talked and prayed with my leader Jake, who saw my emotions coming up. And I knew that this was something that I needed to do. So the next morning as we walked towards the beautiful area where the Fashion Week shows were held during that first day, I felt like being an animal who was soon going to be slaughtered.


I decided not to listen to those terrified feelings but started singing a song in my mind: I'll set you as a seal, upon my heart, as a seal upon my arms. For there is love, that is as strong as death, jealousy demanding as the grave. And many waters, cannot quench this love. You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.


I ended up facing one of my deepest fear during that time. While we were dressing up the models in twenty shows and encouraging them during the times when we could talk with them, my self-image was being rebuilt. 


Pieces that I otherwise would have been collecting for a long time, were coming together in a speed that made my heart burst out of joy and peace. I started believing into my own worth while I saw it being reconstructed.


Sometimes doing what you are really afraid of, but also have a great desire for, can take you further quicker than always avoiding the risk. 


If you are on the edge of doing something brave, maybe talk with a friend who has always supported you. Ask their opinion. Or maybe not.


Sometimes only you know the answer in your heart. Ask your own heart, if this fear is worth facing. In the midst of the biggest fears, while taking the bold steps, we often can feel in the deepest ways, how we are being loved.

9/13/22

Awakened conciousness


That Friday morning brightened up on that Pacific island like any other, beautiful as a bride.


When I look back it feels like I had subconsciously prepared myself for that day for a decade.


I found myself desperate for a change.


But I didn't know how.


My life was being led by a mere performance.


It was empty, like a tree that looks strong and tall from the outside but has no life flow inside.


I was standing in a room with open windows surrounded by a crowd of vibrant people.


My path leading for that moment was of a seeker.


A seeker who's always searching for tools, foolishly thinking they could fix her.


I had tried all the tricks.


Yet there I was, still seeking.


It was almost noon and I had closed my eyes.


Listening to the vibrancy in the air, I suddenly felt something shifting.


In an instant there were no people, no time, no space.


There are no words to describe.


Yet in that moment everything changed.


I was hidden somewhere.


To finally see.


How my life leading to that moment had been all upside down.


How I had been searching for affection and approval with my performance never getting anywhere.


Yet everything in my life that had a life flow was coming from a source of me already being loved and held.


I don't know how long I was where I was.


But when I came back, nothing was ever the same.


From the outside the tree looked exactly the same, but on the inside.


The life flow was flowing from the roots.


No tools, no tricks or hacks.


No formulas.


No performance.


Just my inner self being planted in the soil of unconditional affection and unwavering presence.


Awakened consciousness of how in every moment I was being held.


Never abandoned. 


With no need to prove myself.


And out of that place life flowing through me vibrant and fresh each moment.


That morning on that island started it all.


That unveiling of living from that place.


And seeking what it looks like in every stage of my life.


No matter how fragile, broken or frightened I feel inside.


My new reality calling me out to be loved, no matter what.


That vibrancy itself healing every broken part of me as I journey on.


Let my journey be an invitation for your open heart, and your soul seeking.


For your shift.


Your inner world being radically shaken by you being so loved.


So tightly held every second.


Your beautiful soul being washed up with the morning mist.


No performance.


No need to prove.


Just you being so loved.

9/05/22

Drifted Away to Find Purpose


You've drifted away so far from your passions that your heart bleeds in the dead of the night.


Yet here you are, being held.


If this is you, I have such deep compassion for you, because I was there too.


Secretly bleeding while held.


I found myself washed away by life, in the middle of restricting boundaries, expectations and duties.


My soul was numb.


And here's the beautiful part.


Something small shifted.


And the wild momentum in my heart got loose.


It started slowly finding its nooks to flow out of me, like the lifeflow of sap from a birch.


I was suddenly free to create my life like I always dreamed.


Piece by piece.


It took me a decade or two to get to that spot.


So if you're deep into your drifted away state, here's a thought for you.


The  s h i f t  is coming.


But it doesn't come from the outside as much as it is born within  y o u.


You deciding to go all in on your own life.


To take the wheel in a way that you start slowly, simply making that little calibration of the direction.


Not anything drastic even.


Just a notch.


And that starts the shift.


It looks like you trying out new things.


You saying yes to learning about things you couldn't care about before.


Because you're on the search of the curious, passionate you.


The one who is hungry for life.


Who's not trying to shy away hiding into the comfortable daydream, where nothing ever evolves.


You're on the search of what fulfills you.


What fills your days with meaning.


What makes life flow through you.


And along the way you start learning what is really valuable for you.


So valuable that you're willing to do the work to preserve and edify it.


And to evolve yourself to that stage where you find your sweet spot.


The spot where your natural talents meet someone's deepest needs extravagantly. 


You were made for this.


The  s h i f t  is coming.


Are you ready for it?


Here's the core place to be.


For you to receive that shift in you.


To be held.


To open your hands.


They're empty for a reason.


That empty space is valuable for you.


It's the place for the new start.


Breath it in.


And receive.


That silent voice inside you is getting louder with one thing.


Silent peace.


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